3.27.20
​My Sweet Angel,
Today you turned 2, WOW! You may never know the troubles we have overcame these 1st 2 years, at this point I know I have only survived to keep you safe and make sure you thrive. This year we moved from the magical guest house that became our sanctuary when you were only 6 months old, we got our 1st apartment, you have grown so much! You love mac and cheese, apples, nutella, ice cream, dancing, baby shark, visiting friends, ALL the dogs, you have so much sass and spunk already, it blows my mind, MOST of the time you are kind. Today you got your 1st bike and ice cream cake, we went and fed duckies, flew a kite, you had a great time. We were supposed to celebrate you with a party but this year a crazy virus called COVID-19 came and has pretty much stopped the whole country, I hope you never have to experience the world like this, I've never seen any thing like it. To be honest I never wanted to bring a child into this strange land, it didn't feel responsible but now that you are here I know I have to fight harder, make sure you are smarter, teaching you the difference between right and wrong, how to stay strong, and that we aren't here very long. I can't wait to show you pictures when you get older, but until then I will hold you every chance I get, be there every time you cry, and continue to try...
Try to be stronger, braver, more confident, assertive, patient...
I love you sooo freaking much.
You are my world babygirl,
Love Always,
​Mommy

As per your Auntie Laurie's suggestion here was what I journaled for your 1st birthday on 3/29/2019...
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My  Dearest Suzie Sunshine,
I cannot believe it has been a year already! We started your birthday celebration at Dad's house, went by your Jojo's office where you were showered with gifts and love. Then we went back to dads to see you eat your 1st cake, it was love at 1st bite! The next day mommy's friends gathered at the park to love on you, I enjoyed showing everyone how cute you were eating cupcakes. You are the happiest and most amazing little love, mommy loves you and celebrating you every day sooo much. You have changed my life and world so much already, I don't know where our journey will take us, but I am  confident we will make it through together. Because of you my world is better, I know we can figure out this crazy life together.
You are my heart.
Love Always,
Your Mommy Moon